The last two weekends have not been very pleasant for me. On both the evenings of the Derby and the match against Siena, I went to bed upset and it took another few hours before I fell asleep. When I woke the next morning to go to work, I was in a terrible mood. All the stress, anger and abuse that I yelled at our players and Mancini was not the most positive way to start the week.
As a result, I was actually considering taping the match and going to sleep because I do not think I have the heart to deal with the stress and possible disappointment. My mind keeps going back to the 5 May 2002. On that evening, I did not cry after Lazio beat us 4-2. I was in a state of shock and so disappointed that I quietly went to bed and decided to deal with the fall out in the days and weeks to come.
For some reason, last night, I kept on thinking of Zlatan coming off the bench and scoring to help us win the championship.
I do not think I could cope with another last day of the season capitulation. Despite this, I will be watching the match and hoping for the best but I do not think we have what it takes to wrap up this championship. If we failed to rise to the occasion and and beat Milan in the Derby and failed to manage in front of a capacity crowd at the Meazza what makes you think we can do it against a relegation threatened Parma on the last day of the season where our players nerves and character will well and truly be under pressure?
